change
Dear Ciara,
There is change on the horizon. I’m not going to say anything about it yet, mostly in fear of jinxing things, but this change will likely have a significant impact on my future.
While it is a positive change, there’s so much to it that I am beginning to feel overwhelmed. This is exacerbated by the fact that I have just returned to the work, the beginning of the year always a chaotic, stressful time in my industry. I can feel the stress starting to swell in my body. Stress makes me sick, tired, emotional. It changes me from a normally organised person to a serial procrastinator.
This week, I’ve felt myself beginning to pull back: I’m not putting in as much effort at work; I keep leaving the administration related to this change to The Organist, which is incredibly unfair; and despite having friends in town, I am reluctant to see them.
It’s at times like these that I need to remind myself to turn to nature. Let the sunlight drape over my skin and the sound of the cicadas and the yellow honeyeaters fill my ears. And I will go and see my friends tonight, though I will also prioritise my rest and only stay for a short time.
The song for today is:
Little Spouse — Taylor Demp
Why can’t I get this song out of my head? I don’t normally listen to songs so country, but I find this one so catchy.
Love,
The Gardener