appetite
Dear Ciara,
I haven’t eaten. My appetite is low due to chronic stress. Forgive me while I whinge about my problems—some of which are real, others merely melodramatic.
One of our birds, as you already know, has been unwell. She was placed on antibiotics due to a suspected infection, but her condition has yet to improve. Thankfully, she hasn’t gotten any worse either. We’re scheduled to see the vet again on Wednesday to conduct some more tests and maybe trial some fungal medication (the infection may be fungal, not bacterial). Fingers crossed we can figure out what is wrong with her soon and address it. It is causing us a lot of stress.
The due date for my thesis looms on the horizon, reminding me that I am behind schedule and need to “make haste” and write my conclusion. I am trapped in a cycle of procrastination that I can’t seem to break out of. Any advice?
Finally, I’ve also been a bit upset about something dumb. We’re in a position where we can buy a house, yet we haven’t had any luck. Mostly what we can afford is in poor condition, and when we do find something we like or can work with, someone always offers a fortune more than we do. I recognise how privileged I am to be in this position, but I still can’t help but find the whole situation frustrating. We’ve spent years saving, and now that we are here, it feels like we will never actually get there. The housing situation in Australia makes me livid. The middle-class “Australian Dream” is centred around home ownership, yet it is so difficult as a young person (unless you are wealthy) to actually purchase a property.
Anyway, the song for today is:
I Feel Better But I Don’t Feel Good — Alice Skye
This song matches my mood today. I need to take a deep breath and relax, probably.
Love,
The Gardener